*Rant on*
For all my words of wisdom, I am having difficulty putting them to the test. This sprain blows. I can not believe how much effort I am having to have to put into not overdoing it, to sit out of the things I love to do, to become a bystander instead of a participant. It goes against my nature to only do things half assed, and thats the way I felt this week. No sparring, minimal pad work, burpees absolutley out of the question.
*Rant off*
Sensei Brian picked up on my frustrations wednesday night, what an astute man. He actually suggested that it might be better for me to "do something else" while my ankle healed so I would not be tempted to push beyond my capabilities. In some ways I think he's right, but I am afraid that if I don't get back on my karate horse I am going to lose confidence in myself . I need to be careful, but I must get back to work. It's important to me that I find that balance, to heal while continuing on. I will not let a sprain undermine my confidence in my ability to learn and continue to learn this amazing sport.
In reflection, I should really be grateful that my physio theraptist allowed me to go back to training this week. Insead of seeing the negatives of the "can'ts" I should spend my energy on focusing on what I can do. The power of positive thinking is real, and I believe in it. I am human, however, and sometimes it takes sorting out the frustrations to find the good in the situation.
I am sure that this upcoming week will be better for me.
Regards,
Anne
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